I'm similar boat but I've learnt that I need to put the brakes on a little bit.
Wife and family need me, so that is the most important. More important than my desires.
I tried going "cold turkey" and give up my ambition, but that drove me mad. So I've learnt to integrate. And I also changed jobs which had a tremendous affect on my comfort (much more interesting work for me) - they give me freedom to do anything side-project wise, and they keep the money coming in..
Now I spend a small portion of my time creating and thinking up ideas because that's just what I do, I build little side apps that I want to have, and fill my needs, I do not waste money on chasing a false ideal. and I have room for what I do in the weekly budget.
ATM I'm building a little photo video montage app so I can easily add photos videos of my kids growing up and watch a montage of it when they're older.
I explicitly don't have "what it takes" to run some VC startup. But I have what I want to have now, and if I ever get too busy with my side projects I will offload them, because they are less important.
Wife and family need me, so that is the most important. More important than my desires.
I tried going "cold turkey" and give up my ambition, but that drove me mad. So I've learnt to integrate. And I also changed jobs which had a tremendous affect on my comfort (much more interesting work for me) - they give me freedom to do anything side-project wise, and they keep the money coming in..
Now I spend a small portion of my time creating and thinking up ideas because that's just what I do, I build little side apps that I want to have, and fill my needs, I do not waste money on chasing a false ideal. and I have room for what I do in the weekly budget.
ATM I'm building a little photo video montage app so I can easily add photos videos of my kids growing up and watch a montage of it when they're older.
I explicitly don't have "what it takes" to run some VC startup. But I have what I want to have now, and if I ever get too busy with my side projects I will offload them, because they are less important.