Pretty much everything you have posted as an accomplishment is work related. Do you have kids? If so can you focus on spending time with them? Hobbies that are not work related? Sounds like you need to refocus your life on something new. Go volunteer in Europe to help the Ukrainians, or somewhere in the 3rd world. Or anything else that will give you a different perspective on life. You won the finance game, now go see the world.