I can relate to your sentiment more than TFA these days. I spend very little time on here and youtube (my chief prior addictions) these days, but I have tons of things I want to do and little time to fit them in - projects, books to read, a blog/educational site to start, paintings to finish, etc etc. It's quite frustrating because I used to be very dissociative/escapist like the author and now I'm not I wish I could have all that time back! Especially now that I also have a baby on the way; much of my time is taken up preparing, and when he's here I'll be spending lots of time looking after him.
I realised that the dissociative response was due to a strong emotional response that I wasn't properly addressing. In my case there were a few causes:
- I severely lacked the organisational skills required to break down big work into smaller pieces so I got overwhelmed easy
- I had lacked confidence in things I was unfamiliar with like DIY or marketing
- sometimes I wasn't sure of the concrete next step and avoided the task instead of figuring it out
The way out for me was that through mindful meditation I learned to become aware of when I was checking out, and instead I would just think about what might be causing me strong emotions, usually the next thing I was supposed to be doing. Then I'd work through said emotion by solving the issue that was causing it.
Happy to elaborate via email if you want (in my profile).
