(I attempted to post this from a throwaway account and it got shadowbanned - maybe cause the pastebin link so I deleted it and I am trying it again)

I am on sort of a crossroad in my life right now and not sure what to do. I described my story here, but I exceeded the character limit so I had to put it here https://pastebin.com/raw/Yzu1UvhY please check it out if you are interested.

tl;dr I always liked programming and I think I am fairly good at it and had no issues getting and doing well in real jobs, but I struggle academically (I don't enjoy university work) and don't know if it is worth for me to pursue further formal education.