I made this account to reply to you. Take or leave these ideas, it's all love to me. You sound burned out with your chosen profession. And it also sounds like there's a little fear-of-failure in your procrastination habits. Normally I try and avoid speaking for others but I only say this because it mirrors closely a lot of experiences I've had. I remember feeling the same way partially through school and basically every day after. I don't have a solution for you, but I have some suggestions. I remember at 26 feeling so old. And it's true - you are the oldest you have ever been. And you always will be. So you should probably forgo the obsessive comparison of your age with others. But 26 is a great age - it's probably the best time to be young. You have more resources, but you can still go a little wild without really alienating anyone. You still get to have adventures, you still get to make mistakes. Don't get me wrong, you can do that when you're much older too, but the stakes tend to get higher. You have money saved up for years? Take a long fantastic trip. Alone. Meet new people. See new places. Maybe it will relax you. Maybe it will give you fresh ideas. But at 26, I guarantee it will reshape you. SE Asia is so incredibly cheap yet well-trodden, The US is sprawling and gorgeously diverse, Europe is a different adventure with every train you take, Africa is... wild. Point being that you can start in your own backyard or halfway around the world, but you're at a time where you can really take advantage of the experience. Also, you're probably better looking now than you'll ever be again. Take advantage of that while you can.

-jayce