Reaching 40s has been brutal for me. I dont have the illusion of starting off on a shiny new project because I am perhaps too jaded with all such projects that either never got off ground or failed miserably in the past. But its also the question of what sort of legacy will I leave for my children as I understand more of myself and hte person I have become. The mortality question often comes up, but more in regard to how my family will end up without me (in terms of finances and such). While life has worked out good so far, I have never been so acutely aware of my weaknesses as I am now and that hurts.